Ok, how did you survive the dawn of holiday season--Thanksgiving? I made plans to attend 2 dinners, and told each I stopped by the other one and ate so I got by without needing to eat their meals. It worked out great; brought my anxiety level WAAAY down once I got the brilliant idea to play it that way.
And now I'm making the moves, understanding myself and encouraging myself to move forward and become involved in a serious relationship. And that means sharing meals together, activities that involve food or drinking or whatnot, having someone want to share treats with you and watch you if you drop too low in weight...it's a big deal anyway, and even more so when you have an ED--especially one you try hard to keep secret to the world. But the alternative is that I run away from relationships...because why? I have an ED? And then what would I do? So I choose the relationships. It's all about growth, challenges and LIFE. I am NOT abandoning you, Ana. i'm here. I just want to try my hand at this relationship and still maintain my strongest one, my Ana relationship.