Friday, July 17, 2009

Ever one day?

Being single at this stage in my life, living in my own place, I am grateful to be on my own and to have the solitude so I can live with my ED in peace. I often wonder if I will ever get married or have a serious relationship...I have in the past but always work fiercely to conceal my disorder and in the past couple years have ended several relationships because I didn't want them to get too close. Will I ever be able to handle living with another person again? How do you guys do it, the ones I read about who are getting married or are married with a family?

I am flying home to visit my family and stay with my parents in a week. Again I'll go through hoops to conceal my disorder that they think I gave up years ago. Staying up late at night to chew/spit when everyone is in bed after eating nothing all day, then being really sleepy during the day because of it...finally looking forward to coming back home to my own place for solitude again...this cycle has gone on for years. I don't want to give it up enough to break it, obviously. Will I ever? I'll make a decision to stop cold, wake up to a new day and eat "normally", etc...and that will last about 2 days. Then it's back to the comfort zone. Forever?

2 comments:

  1. Breitling Watch rather avant-garde concept has to some degree been borrowed from similar high-tech industries; Montbrillant Datora is essentially a new sort of Chrono Superocean production line that maintains artistic integrity. Every movement is perfectly tracked by high tech computer software that instantly transmits Breitling Avenger to the proper station following a path wherein automated stations alternate with stations that require manual intervention.

    So be careful when selecting MY WIFE AND KIDS to ensure that you will be receiving top quality MY WIFE AND KIDS DVD packaging from a reputable company.There are certain qualities that will set one company apart from others, and you should also think about some innovative designs that will make your packaging and MY WIFE AND KIDS DVD COLLECTION product stand out.

    Hogan also fits well and light tread. These are all important factors that runners need Hogan scarpe donna and make default. What are the best Hogan scarpe uomo being available executive? We can say Hogan uomo is certainly in the top 10.

    ReplyDelete
  2. http://dvd005.weebly.com/dvd.html
    http://dvd006.weebly.com/dvd.html
    http://dvd007.weebly.com/dvd.html
    http://dvd0001.weebly.com/dvd.html
    http://dvd0003.weebly.com/dvd1.html
    http://dvd0004.weebly.com/dvd.html
    http://dvd0005.weebly.com/dvd.html
    http://dvd0006.weebly.com/dvd.html
    http://dvd0008.weebly.com/dvd.html
    http://dvd0002.weebly.com/dvd11.html
    http://dvd01.wordpress.com/
    http://dvd001.wordpress.com/

    &_~

    ReplyDelete